4/2/05

i woke up with a bad headache wow. had a weird as hell dream too. i dont really remember much of it except for a field of red flowers. my mom then shook me awake and told me that the pope died. i didnt really care but she was really torn up about the whole thing. was an odd experience

realized that i woke up way later than i normally do. 12 pm jesus christ. that doesnt really matter anyway because i immediately fell right back to sleep like a lazy sack of shit. EMBARRASING!!!

actually as im typing this it is kind of weird. im never this tired and we didnt even do anything yesterday. we just watched movies for humanities class and thats it. lord of the rings is gay btw and some girl in my class wanted to flay gollum like a fish. okay no that isnt true i lied but wouldnt it be so funny

i did message tyler about the situation but he did not give a singular shit. direct quote:

“Pimpin_Goku666: You sound insane

Pimpin_Goku666: I told you to stop eating so much fucking nutmeg before bed

Pimpin_Goku666: Twenty nuts right before you hunker down is absolutely psychotic behavior

Pimpin_Goku666: Calm down”

wise words “Pimpin_Goku666”. also this conversation didn’t do jack shit to help me feel better. even while i’m writing this i still feel like there’s a black hole sitting at the very bottom of my stomach cutting into my colon. if i was a complete idiot i would assume all my shit would disappear from my body into that unspecified hole

i started writing this at 12:45. it’s now 2. honestly it feels like time’s going by way faster than it actually is. either that or im currently experiencing quantum homicide and someone’s killing every possible alternate version of myself via hitman

and for the record. i only have ONE nutmeg per night. tyler just marks that number up tenfold to piss me off !!!!!